o4 because being pushed up against the bus by a kid half my height is where i want to be

[sogeking]

sometimes life just fucks you up and you're like oh who am i kidding can i just die already

i don't know if i'm sad i think i am just empty and tired sigh i think i turned out into some pretty horrible kid?? it's sorta silly cause everyone cuts class but i normally don't and not this much at least sigh pretty much lied to my math teacher about having an ap when i don't just cause i wanted to cut?? i think i'm just dumb why would i even say that sheesh but yea cutting math three times in a row?? i don't think i'll pass lmao not that i was doing that well anyway

and i've been getting bored of everything? and i mean everything sometimes i dread coming home because of the boredom i'll be faced with u g h sometimees i just come home, shower, change and go straight to bed ~____~ on monday i slept for thirteen hours straight right after volunteer sigh sometimes i just don't want to deal with things and want to forget everything you know?? i don't really think i have much to do in life and i want to give up because everything's useless!!

i'm rly nervous about my english speech too i don't know what to do with myself

i don't want to be awake anymore